Why!

The biggest struggle since we got word of this deployment is understanding Gods purpose. Why did God want Shawn deployed again? It stinks! But I am coming to trust God and to believe that Gods purpose and plan is bigger then me and ANY problem I may come across. The last few weeks have been really rough, two cousins gone, sick kids, pain ridden Papa...the list goes on and on. But today is a new day and a new lesson for me right from my heavenly father. My parents are at the hospital preparing to bring home there first foster child, a premature baby boy weight just under 4 lbs. my brother and his family are bringing home two boys, ages 5 and 6 right now. I am not directly involved, I am support staff...and that is very important for me to accept. I am not the center of attention and I do not need to be the person doing everything and helping everyone. I am loving my family, giving support where and when I can, even if that is just praying for them! That is how I feel God truely speaking to me today. I accept his lesson and old it close to my heart.