Ups and Downs

I have found it difficult to post much. Shawn has been gone for two months and I can't believe we have seven left, it feels like a life time! I have been so up and down with my emotions and reactions i am not sure which way I am headed very often. I have grown a lot and gained a lot of perspective, understanding and had massive realizations about myself and life and I am grateful that God put me in this situation so I could grow so much, but on the other hand there is an overwhelming aching in my heart for my husband, my best friend. Every time I look at our children I feel like a vital peice is just missing. This is not easy and I wish it wasn't happening, I wish Shawn was home!