Over There

He left, really left. Up until now he has still been in the states, still just a phone call away. Now he is gone, where I cannot reach, I can only wait. I have spent my life waiting for him. I got a call from him at 2:30 am, we only had 10 minutes. He did not sound bad, tired, but focused. I miss him so much, everyday I pray that the Lord makes this easy on him and the kids. I know we have to do this, but I don't want to. I wonder and pray a lot why? What is God's purpose in all of this? What does he want us to get out of all of this? Patience? Money? Closer? Closer to Him? I am trying. Hiding myself in His word, in speaking to Him. But my soul still aches for my husband, why?