Confidence in his Voice

There is confidence in his voice tonight. It soothed me, but scared me. He always does better at his job on deployments then he does at a clinic here in the states. His job just isn't as fulfilling or important here once he has helped solider over there. Confidence in his voice because he knows he is awesome and will thrive.

But confidence only goes so far, when you can only hear your children giggle and cannot hold them or rock them to sleep. When they are more then 30 hours of driving away and soon they will be across the world. He is a strong man, the strongest I know, but I can hear it in his voice, he misses his children and he tucks that pain far under so he cannot feel it right now, because feeling too much of anything right now would make these future months unbearable. He must survive and he knows well how to. I love him for that.

The kids got to Skype with him tonight. Seeing his face and hearing his voice. It took Lily a minute to understand what was going on and that that was really Daddy. But once she got it she was sweet and excited. She touched his face and gave him kisses, then she hugged the Ipad! Before the call was over she had gotten a picture she had colored today from the other side of the room and showed it to Daddy. She knew it was him and my heart soared that she understood and finally connected to her Daddy!!! Johnny was jealous and just wanted Daddy all to himself and show him funny faces and giggle constantly.

We miss him, but we have put his life into Gods hands and trusting that our family will be complete one day. God is good, ALL THE TIME!! Even when families are separated by war. God is there working in only the way he can see and all we can do is prayer and show him our hearts.